Wishlist 2008

My 29th (..eepp!) birthday is coming and I’m making a wish list again! I’m making this my tradition LOL!

I want wish to have …

1. 5-8 hours of uninterrupted sleep, with enough bed space! (I can barely move in my current space because Caleb loves my side and he eats my space with all his arms and legs!)
2. ME time, no baby and no husband to demand my attention.
3. a work-from-home job with a kick-as salary! (dream on!)
4. a lazy day, I don’t cook, I don’t clean and all I do is feed the baby and nothing else.
5. For Caleb to take the bottle so his transition to daycare will be easier.
6. a suprise bday gift from the pesky husband, not delayed and on the day itself!

7. a brand new 14″ laptop – my laptop is conking out on me.
8. guiltless shopping spree
9. spa treatments – gad I need this!
10. Whitegold jewelry set – earrings, necklace, bracelet
11. Louis vuitton damier azur speedy 25 but I know that is too much so I’ll make do with a Coah Ergo (red please). It’s half the price! mweheheheheh!!!!!

I can’t think of anything non-expensive, expensive taste ko eh! Seriously, no make-ups and pampa beauty for me this year because I still have my Bare Escentuals Kit and I can’t apply just anything on my face because I’m breastfeeding! Oh, I’ve been wanting to have that Miracle perfume but sad to say I can’t tolerate perfumes nowadays, it gives me the sniffles!

Nothing is planned yet for my birthday, I’m thinking of inviting some friends over but that would be too much work for me as I have to clean the house, cook etc. So we will probably have a quiet dinner at some Filipino restaurant. The weekend before my Birthday is a long holiday, we will be going to Niagara falls (6 hours drive!), that would be enough to lift my travel spirit to a high.

Mom Worries

It’s been a while since I posted an entry, its just that I don’t have the energy to do so. Motherhood is taking its toll on me, it’s a 24/7 tireless job. Like these past few days, I haven’t been getting enough sleep because the little one wakes up every two hours! I know I’m not suppose to but I give him my breast as soon as he stirs. It’s the only way for me to get  some sleep! Yiek is suggesting that we let him cry it out until he sleeps as what his friend advises him. I don’t have the heart for that, I can’t just listen to Caleb crying himself to sleep when I know I can just pick him up (the book suggest that if he cries for an hour then let him cry). They grow up so fast and pretty soon he won’t be needing me.

I worry that I’m doing all things wrong because he still can’t sleep through the night, he cries himself out when strangers carry him and he won’t take the bottle again. I worry of how he will thrive 2 months from now in daycare, will he still be a happy baby? Will I ever train him to feed from a sippy cup or retrain him to take his bottle?  I have trust issues that I have to deal with, heck I can’t even trust Yiek to take care of him. The only person I trust went home. 

Yes, motherhood is a pretty, pretty tiring job but all it takes is a giggle and I feel rewarded.