Caleb @ 2 months

Time flies so fast! Caleb is now 2 months! He smiled at us when he was at 6 weeks and 5 days and now coos and babbles much to Daddy’s delight. He is a very talkative boy, I tell you! We usually put him on his bouncer when we are eating, and he would coo and make his sweet sounds as if to say “tagda ko! (look at me)”. If you talk to him, he’ll coo right back. Such a charmer our son.

He gave his pedia a big smile during his monthly visit but cried his heart out when he was given 4 shots. Poor kid, he had a slight fever yesterday because of that. He can now slightly lift his his head without support and can now be entertained with colorful toys. His favorite is his crib mobile, every time I change his nappies he stares at them intently. He is also discovering the power of crying, darn it, wants to be carried all the time, would know if I sit down and would want to be always swayed, very demanding! I’ll be getting a lot of muscles from all of this because he is now more than 6 kilos!

Caleb’s Birth Story

It’s been almost 8 weeks since I gave birth and I haven’t written my birthing story! It’s not that I didn’t attempt to write, I did and had 2 drafts made. One went poof when my computer suddenly restarted and the other is in my drafts but I don’t seem to have the mojo to continue the darn thing.

I’d rather write fresh and this would be a short version since I’m too lazy to start a detailed one.

Thursday Jan 24

I had an appointment with my OB and there was no progress at all! Still 2 cm dilated and cervix is close. We scheduled a softening of the cervix on January 31 night and induction on Feb 1.  I was getting really, really impatient.

Friday Jan 25
Sometime 3:00 am, I felt some dysmenorrhia like sensation but ignored the pain and slept.

Come 5:00 am, the back pains and sensation were coming in stronger, I timed it and it was in 5 minutes interval. It was already painful but still I felt that it was just braxton hicks or false labor. kala ko titigas tummy ko  during contractions so kevs lang!

By 7:00 pm my water broke and finally psyched myself that this is it! I prepared our things, nag plantsa pa ako! (late f*kcer este packer kasi). I called my OB and was told to proceed to the hospital.

MY contractions were becoming stronger and stronger and I really wanted to go to the hospital ASAP but my dear, dear husband took his sweet time. I told him to email his boss while I was packing our things. When I went out of the room, ning siga akong mata (my eyes went large sakto ang english? haha) he was coding! Manganganak na ako nagtratrabaho pa siya! Hello!?! Wa siya nalipong! I was half shouting at him to move his ass!

I called my OB at 7 and I got to the hospital at 9:30 because dear husband took his damn sweet time! My contractions were becoming VERY painful and was coming in at less than 5 minutes at 1 minute ++ per contraction. Every contraction water would gushed and I have soiled my pants big time.

I walked to the maternity ward alone because Yiek was still parking our car and I couldn’t wait for him because the pain was becoming too unbearable, nasa 3rd floor pa yung maternity!

When Yiek arrived at the maternity ward, I was already sitting on the floor because of the pain. We registered and I was strapped in.

They checked and I was already 7 cm dilated, wow! Madali lang pala ako maglabor eh. Sabi ko pa, kerry ko tong pain, I will not have an epidural. After an hour I changed my mind and demanded one! I was #3 on the list but they prioritized me because I was already 10 cm dilated by 11:30 and ready to push!

After the epidural, heaven no pain! My nurse told me to try pushing and I did. Iba-iba position, tagilid front at kung ano-ano pa. And everytime I would push the nurse would say “Good job! that’s it, that’s it” isip grr parang niloloko lang ako nito good job daw wala naman progress! I pushed for 2 hours with Yiek giving me ice chips but still the baby would not come down.

Ito pa nakakainis, when I was still writhing in pain, Yiek was busy texting and chatting. Gusto ko nang patayin siya!

My OB told me that the baby would not come down even if I’ll push and push for x number of hours, so she has to perform a C-section. Waaah!! At 2:30 PM I was wheeled to the operating room, I could see and feel what they are doing to me but I could only move my head, I was numb all over. nakikinig lang nga ako sa chika nila while they were preparing, yung sushi daw sa NY my mercury at kung ano-ano pa.

When it was time for the baby to be pulled out, Yiek was called to come to the room and sit beside me. I could feel them pushing my tummy and suddenly I heard crying, our baby’s cry. I felt relieved that it was finally over. As I look at our baby I couldn’t believe that we made him and it took me days to internalize.

The truth is, it wasn’t like those in the movies wherein the mothers would cry buckets after seeing the baby. For me it’s different, I felt like a a 3rd person looking in. It wasn’t love at first sight, it took me days to finally acknowledge that this baby is mine and we made him.

P.S.

Pagod na ako basahin ulit to pardon the grammatical errors.

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