Zoombie post

I am a walking zoombie! Today I have 3 hours of sleep and here I am blogging. LOlz! I am still at the hospital and will be out by Tueday. Good thing there is internet here, soYiek wouldn’t be bored so much and we or rather he can chat with his and my (?) friends. He has been taking over my gtalk and yahoo chats while I’m too busy with other stuff.

So this is my life now, me feeding the baby every 3 hours and the nurses checking my vitals and making me take my meds in between those 3 hours. Who in their right mind would be able to sleep with all that!

Birthing story to follow when I have the strength and time.

Our Little Bundle of Joy

Welcome to the world Caleb (Cay-leb) Adrian Daria, born at 2:57 PM, January 25, 2008, weighing 7 pounds and 11 ounces (Big eh?).

Self-destructing love

I have an acquintance, let’s call her Kurapdaya. Kurdapya is thirsty for love I don’t know why, must be because she is a middle child or it must be her need for some ounce of affection.

She is the type pf person who could not do without some guy tailing her, the type who always think that having a boyfriend will make her complete. She’s had a string of relationships and to say that she’d never been touched is saying I can climb Mt. Everest in 5 minutes. I have to say that in this day and age, I have a boyfriend of x months/years and I’ve never been touched is such a hypocritical statement. Since Kurdapya went through a lot of boyfriends who dumped her like a hot potato plus some really, really bad choices and decisions(the drunk-and-I-am-mad-so-screw-it kind), its appropriate to say that she had a colorful past.

Now, Kurdapya is really a nice lady, the intelligent kind, the one who will succeed if she keeps her focus and mind into it, the one who will never have any problems acing an interview. What makes me wonder is why she lacks a dose of self-esteem, when all the world is for her taking. I guess I’ll have to wonder more about that.

She meet a guy who wooed her to no end. She told the guy about her colorful past as should be done and she found out that the guy was uber conservative. The guy told her words such as “If only you’ve never been touched then I would have married you right away”. Still, she decided to go into a relationship with this guy. So conservative is the guy that any association with other guys would mean something else to him. Even outings with cousins and certain friends are not allowed. They’ve hurdled countless fight with the guy always saying “I can’t accept your past”, but still Kurdapya would pursue and beg for them to be “on” again.

I told Kurdapya to stop this destructive relationship ASAP but she said “he’s the only one who will accept me now and no other guy will”, no matter how I try to tell her otherwise she’s got that stuck on her head. She is unhappy but she is sticking to the guy in the hope of some inkling of acceptance. She’s dreaming of wedding bells and the guy is dreaming of letting go. I for one would like to pounce the guy for his damn philosophy and say “If virginity is such an issue go F*kc a monkey”. I guess in situations like this all you can do is stand back give your advice and hope that she wakes up from her reverie. You can only do so much but still, seeing her in self-desctruct mode makes you wonder if there is anything else you can do.

The waiting game

I’ve decided that this will be my last week at work, I just want to take a rest and sleep (a lot!) before we hurdle the biggest challenge in our lives.

For starters since many of my friends are single or married without kids, let me give you some pregnancy 101. There are 40 weeks to a pregnancy and your estimated due date(EDD) can be estimated (duh!) based on your last menstrual period (LMP) or ultrasound (before 12 weeks u/s). My EDD would have been Jan. 27 if I based it on my LMP but since I had an ultrasound early (around 6 weeks) which is more accurate, my EDD was pushed back to Feb 5. Only 5% of pregnant women actually gives birth on their EDD and I was one of them or rather my Mom was in labor on my EDD. My sis was two weeks late and had to be induced while brother is 2 weeks early. How’s that for being average? Call me the average sibling or middle sibling! LOL!

Once you are on your 37th week, your baby now becomes ready for the world and the waiting game begins. Obviously I am in the waiting game right now and everybody and I mean everybody is asking if I’ve already given birth.

My mom asks me everyday for progress such as “wala pa?” as if I won’t inform her if I’m already in labor! Yiek’s Mom a midwife suggested having S-E-X every other day to speed things up and suggested positions such as Ginunting, magluhod and dinangit. I tell you that email cracked me up soo much and Yiek was muttering “Manghilabot man!”. What is dinanggit anyway?

This waiting game is a test of patience, we are so excited to meet our little one and to tell you the truth I haven’t pack all our items yet. It’s nerve wracking and I want it to be over tsk!

My back hurts so I’m blogging

*My blog title is senseless, I can’t think of any so there!*

Sorry for the gross details but I’m bored out of my mind and all I can think about is this pregnancy so you are going to see more blogs from me, if you can’t see me on ym, gtalk or I’m too quiet here that only means one thing, I have given birth and free times are a thing of the past.

I just visited my OB-GYNE today, I am getting tired of always going to the doctor every week! For this week I had to wait an hour and 1/4 to see her and to think, Yiek and I just snuck out of our office to go there.

She did an internal exam (IE) and was doing something inside my vajayjay. I told her, I am getting tired of this pregnancy and want it to be over and done with. She told me that I am already 2 cm dilated, at last some progress!!! She also told me that I have a 50-50 chance of going into labor before my next appointment which is next Thursday. We will see, I’ve heard of women being 2 cm dilated for weeks and still no labor. My OB is giving me a choice of induced delivery when I reach the 39th week (1 week and 4 days from now). I’m not sure if I should agree, they said its more painful than normal labor and there might be complications which would lead to my tummy being knifed and stapled. But then if I wait a little more, I might have an 8-pounder baby. Hmmmm. I have a week to decide, esep-esep.

Baby is still high up there, I need to exercise more, if only it weren’t so freakin’ cold outside then I would have circled our compound. My only exercise is going up and down the stairs here in the office, which isn’t much because there are only 3 floors. Me thinks that S-E-X is the best exercise but husbandry can’t get over the fact that there is a moving baby inside my tummy and I look like a palahubug daw. LOL! He laughs when he sees how big my tummy has become, what a sensitive prick eh?

Baby @ 37 weeks

We just had an ultrasound today and my oh my I am having a BIG baby, last check-up I was measuring a week ahead and now I found out that baby’s weight right now is 7.2 lbs!!! How in the world am I going to pop him out and his clothes darn, some of his clothes might be too small for him and will be unused. To date he has 34 newborn onesies, sleepers and snap shirts, I don’t know how many out of the 34 he can use. If only I can return it to the store grrr!!! Its either I lost the receipt or taken out the tag.

I asked the u/s technichian to make sure that I’m having a baby boy and lo and behold I get to see his big balls. She also said he had a perfect profile to which Yiek thinks attribute to his handsomeness *gagging*. <Pictures to follow>

Baby’s bag is packed, mine isn’t complete yet and car seat has been installed. All his clothes,blankets, washcloths have been washed and folded, diapers and wipes are ready for the taking so we are just waiting for his arrival. Patience is a virtue, something I don’t have these past few days, I’d usually scream at Yiek to hurry up when I want something.

Gawd! I hope I deliver soon! I haven’t dropped yet, my cervix is unripe and nowhere am I dilated. Damn it!

Baby @ 36 Weeks

” At the end of this week, you’re going to reach an important pregnancy milestone: Your baby will be considered full term! That means you could give birth very soon. Put any unnecessary travel plans on hold now in case you go into labor early. Many airlines won’t let pregnant women fly close to their due dates for this reason. It’s also time to start wrapping up projects at work, get an infant car seat if you haven’t already done so (you won’t be allowed to leave the hospital without one), and put finishing touches on the nursery. Your baby – who now weighs about 6 pounds and is almost 19 inches long – will continue to gain about an ounce a day until he makes his debut.” – babycenter.com

The ticker just made my day, S-E-X indeed. I have to write to “Wish ko lang” foundation to have this fulfilled. I have started seeing my OB-GYNE weekly and tomorrow she is going to put her fingers inside my vajayjay and see if I’m dilated and effaced. So not looking forward to that! I’ve read that it would hurt tsk! tsk! Also, I’m suppose to have my maternity shots last weekend but our friend cancelled on us and Yiek is forever saying tomorrow. I wonder if I’ll even get to have pictures before the birth. Grrrr!!!!  My tummy is still high up there, no lightening yet (di pa bumaba), no loss of mucous plug so I might have our ‘lil one pop out nearer my due date or after my due date. Sigh! I wish it would be next week but that would be wishful thinking, have to climb more stairs!

Wish February is here.

My manager popped a message to me, telling me that our manager who is higher than him (bah! titles I don’t care about them) wasn’t too happy with my timesheets, I had a lot of “knowledge transfer”(meaning not working on anything) put in. I told them I don’t have a definite date on when I should start my leave and that I’m just waiting for the ‘lil one to pop-out! I know from their view that I am a liability right now, they can’t assigned me to long term projects and can only assign me minor bugs. Bah! I don’t care for that right now, I’m guilty but not that guilty for giving them a headache. LOL!

I was suppose to write a 10-things-I hate-about-my-life right now entry but I’m not to angry as of the moment to continue the entry. I usually do this, start an entry and then decide to shelve it to my kaban. I’ll just do another one of those top-xx-to-xxx kind of entry.

Ok here goes, I’m looking forward for February because
1. I will not be pregnant anymore. Wooohoo!!!! I can finally have some tummy time i.e. sleeping face down. Of course this means that…
2. Our baby will finally be here after more than 9 months of waiting! which means that…
3. I finally get to be a Mom. Err I’m not sure if I should be excited about this. I’m not sure I’m even ready but for sure it would a trying and exciting time mixed into one.
4. I can finally shelve all my boring pregnancy clothes if I go back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Hey! I’m all alone and breastfeeding(big time calorie burner), so I’ve got no time to cook and less time to eat junk foods (take out food) since I’m just staying at home. I’m hoping all that activity will help me shed all the unwanted pounds. Jesh! I hope I get my mom’s genes. Do you know that I’m fatter than her even before I was pregnant. If I previously weighed at 107 lbs then she’d be a 102! She was never fat in her entire life.
5. I can finally wear high heels! Flat shoes are boring.
6. I can drink iced tea and other sodas. I know I have to avoid caffeine while breastfeeding but this time I won’t feel guilty downing a cup/can a day.
7. I can finally move around the house without the added weight. I can touch my toes and have no difficulty bending over while putting on my underpants.
8. I can pee with pleasure, not just some trickle but a big whoosh. Of course if I have episiotomy, I have to grind my teeth and chuck-up the pain.
9. Yiek and I can finally hug each other without the tummy getting on the way.
10. March would be nearer which means that my parents will soon be here. I can finally taste decent home-cooked food. I’m getting tired of Yiek’s cooking. LOL!

Did ya notice that all this pertains to my pregnancy?  I should just rename it as top-things-i-look-forward-to-when-I’m-not-pregnant. February is also Yiek’s bday and of course Valentine’s day. I doubt if I can give Yiek a present, my hand will be full with a baby in tow, he said the coming of our ‘lil one would be his bday gift and what a gift! It requires 9 months of incubation, needs a lot of expensive accessories too and is very high-maintenance. LOL! I hope for some flowers/chocos though come Valentines. Dare I hope?

Being an FA

It’s been 2 days and all I do is stare at the monitor and wait for the time to pass. I must have visited all forums, like right now I’m reading about being a flight attendant (its so relevant with what I’m doing duh!). Well, I use to dream of being one, who wouldn’t? Para kang beauty queen, travel all around the world pa! I ditched that dream when I grew up to be only 5′2″, I didn’t have a 20/20 vision and my teeth is really crooked, kung looks lang pass nako (burit! hehe). So there! No FA for me, boohoo. I was however a licensed Load Specialist for Cathay so I got to see how it is to work in some airport. I really had high regards for airports parang wow airport, di basta basta makapasok sa loob, tsaka rich lang ang nakakapasok ano, I was 21 when I had my first flight kaya ganun ka ignorante (sa totoo nag fly nako when I was 7 pero di ko na talaga matandaan)! The job had its perks,we’d get free foods and lots of free time! Imagine us playing scrabble and do nothing but make chikka. This is were I got addicted to coffee!!! Some colleauge of mine would always drag me to Bo’s coffee and since its free I would obligingly drink up, ayun na addict! But the job became too monotonous for me and I didn’t want to be brain-dead so I quit.

Now, I’m also afraid of having a rusty brain, I can’t do this for days you know, not do anything. I’m itching to do something, anything for that matter! Give me something, that will make my brain fry! I know I should brush up my skills, trust me I tried but I get so sleepy reading all those techy stuff. Tomorrow, promise I’ll read at least one chapter. Must motivate myself so I can transfer to a new job. I know, I know, pula na pud ko ug lubot but why should I stay if I’m unhappy, right?

Also, this is completely off the topic, I’ve discussed with our HR regarding my upcoming birth and I’ve decided to work ’til our little one pops up. Uh-uh Good Luck to me! I can just imagine my officemates’ expression if I break my water here. Priceless! I can finally fulfill my dream of riding in an ambulance LOLZ! (labo nga dream hehehe).

P.S.

I might get serious again with paid blogging seeing as I have so much free time so please don’t mind those nonsense entries.  If I post in some link or do stories that is soo out of character for me, its a paid entry. so you may just scan those entries or choose to skip reading them!

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008

2007 had been a great year for me. I got a new job, meet new friends, traveled to different places and got myself sperminated. hah!

It never fails to amaze me how blessed am I to have

1. beautiful loving friends. Friends who are far far away from me yet we always manage to stay in touch with chismis and other what-nots.
2. family to always go to. Ma, unsaon pagluto ug ….? Ma, gi diarrhea ko, unsa ang tambal? a sis in law who always says I’m a blooming pregnant woman. A cousin and an aunt who gave me lots and lots of new baby items.
3. new friends who made me feel welcome and at home. Yiek’s officemate gave me a baby shower. How cool is that?
4. and most importantly, a husband who never fails to make me laugh. Oh yes, he can be pesky and exasperating but if he weren’t so I’d be bored to death! Now he is my slave, he puts on my boots (I just can’t do it myself!), give me my vitamins and water and helps me stand up when I can no longer seem to make myself do so!

I’m excited for 2008! This will be a year of firsts for us.