The Bamboo and the Fern

Got this from a forwarded email:

Perfect timing because
1. I felt I didn’t know my purpose.
2. I felt insecure and I was berating myself.
3. I wanted to quit
4. A cup from starbucks failed to cheer me up.
5. I didn’t get the understanding that I desperately sought.

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THE FERN AND THE BAMBOO

One day I decided to quit…
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality…
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

“God”, I said. “Can you give me one good reason not to quit?”

His answer surprised me…

“Look around”, He said. “Do you see the fern and the bamboo?”
“Yes”, I replied.

“When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But
I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

“In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.
In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. “I would not quit.” He said.

“Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant…But just
6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.”

He said to me. “Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots”

“I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.”

“Don’t compare yourself to others.” He said. “The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet, they both make the forest beautiful.”

“Your time will come”, God said to me. “You will rise high!”

“How high should I rise?” I asked.

“How high will the bamboo rise?” He asked in return.

“As high as it can?” I questioned.

“Yes.” He said, “Give me glory by rising as high as you can.”

I left the forest and bring back this story.

Think OOP

Think of objects..objects..

Separate behaviour….

Think of loosely coupled modules..

Dang! I should remember but why do I always forget.
Need more practice. need more practice.

My brain needs fine tuning.

Farewell NEC

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My last day of work here in NEC, no tasks to do, no emails to read and I’ve done reading PBB updates (syempre adik ako dito).

I started last Monday with my new work. I turned my “serious” mode to on. Mala-angel. Wohoo! Faster internet, no limitations on the websites, ym and googletalk is not banned and best of all Yiek and I get to have lunch together. Poor husband, tapos na maliligayang araw nya. I am now the evil bitch who monitor his expenses hehehe.

I miss though our constant chismisian, our constant bashing of **** in jabber and most of all I miss the coffee from the vending machine. But I’ve achieved what I wanted here and I must move on. Farewell friends. WE will see each other again for sure. Promise li-librehan ko kau.

I’m having fun at my new work. Free coffee, biscuits, noodles and juice. My mediocre talent in programming and object oriented skills (oop) is quite big there, so feeling ko ang galing2x ko hehehe. At last a company, where my skills are duly recognized.

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5:49 PM

I am done with my farewell speech (for the second time). Thanks guys may starbucks mug na ako. . Mami-miss ko talaga kayo.

The Rebels

me ‘n mabs

wcdma’ers

me,myself and starbucks

NBI clearance

I filed leave today because I have to get an NBI clearance. I was expecting that it would last the whole day but surprisingly I finished steps 1-7 within an hour. Of course because it is a Philipine agency, may nag-offer na siya na lang daw mag process ng papers ko. May nakita rin akong di pumila at diretso lang sa teller kasama ang isang nbi employee. Kelan kaya mawawala ang corruption? Tsk!

1 hour passed quickly, it helped of course that Yiek was with me or else I would have been bored to death lining up. Yiek didn’t trust me to go alone because I have no sense of direction daw! Hmmpp.

Even though I hated my other “bitas” ear, I wore dangling earrings because I want to look good on the picture. hehehe.

I had a funny moment though while a man was taking my fingerprints:

man: punta ka dito, ako nang magfinger print sayo
ako: aba nagandahan ata sa akin
man: para abroad o japan ba to?
ako: ay hindi po, local employment lang
man: bakit? di mo ba gusto yung japan?
ako: ay..ayaw ko po
man: qualified ka naman ah…

Tsk! mag japayuki na lang ba ang pag-asa naming mga babae.

We then watched Grimm Brothers in Robinson’s Pioneer. The movie house was comparable or even better than that in Glorietta at a cheaper price. The movie was great too. We had fun guessing the distorted fairytales.

It rained hard and it took us a while to get a ride home, but I’m quite happy with how the day ended because I got myself new shoes and a blouse. The shoes was quite expensive but Yiek saw yata the longing in my eyes so he gave me the go signal. Di na siya nagre-reklamo. PMS cured. hehehe

Adjusting…

I’m having a bad night.

I went home not knowing what to cook. I browsed and browsed many cooking sites but I couldn’t find one that is quite easy to cook. I suggested that we instead eat out but Yiek persisted that I cook instead. Ok fine, I’ll cook.

I decided to cook fried chicken since it was the easiest to thaw. So as placed tuyo, a little sugar and vinegar. I requested Yiek to cook rice (only after I requested 10x). He reprimanded me for not marinating the chicken without properly thawing.

Gutom na kaya ako, so huwag ka ng mag-reklamo! Since, I also thawed ground meat, I decided to cook tortang baboy. “Do you eat torta?”. No daw. Ok, I’ll cook this for myself since I miss Tia Vicing’s torta.

I was damn irritated with his chicken comment that I decided to look at our cupboards and ref. for another alternative. I had leftover tomato sauce and upon seeing the afritada recipe at the back of tetrapack, I decided to cook afritada.

Of course, since I didn’t feel like cooking, my afritada was not flavorful enough. As you all know, Yiek is very picky with his food, he only ate a tidbit of the chicken. He wanted me to make grape juice for him with the promise that he will do the dishes. Yeah, right! Wash the dishes my ass. Let’s see if you’ll wash the dishes without me nagging you.

After dinner, I folded our laundry. I felt my eyes getting misty and tears started falling because I just felt so tired. Why must I do all the housework? I also bring home the bacon. I also work 8 hours/day. Bakit siya nag-i-internet lang at nanonood ng tv samantalang ako yung nagluluto, ako ang naglilinis, ako ang naglalaba, ako ako ako nalang lahat. Bakit kung u-utusan ko siya ang tagal nyang kumilos? Lahat na lang inu-utus sa kin, “Claire bigyan mo ako ng tubig”, “Claire bigay mo sa akin yung chocolate”, “Claire bigay mo sa akin ang nail cutter”, “Claire bigyan mo ako ng toothpick”. Reklamdor pa, kasalanan ko daw bakit pumayat siya dahil hindi ako nagluluto ng breakfast, bakit daw kulang yung naplantsa ko na damit nya at bakit daw ang dumi ng bahay.

Ako, ako lagi na lang ako. Sana di na ulit-ulitin yung mga utos ko sa kanya para gawin niya. Sana maka-experience din ako na pag-uwi ko sa bahay may pagkain na handa para sa akin. Tao din ako may damdamin at napapagod. Ok, I think I’ve watched too much pinoy dramas.

Must be the PMS. Yes, it must be the PMS.

Hello from sleepy land

So i haven’t been updating this journal. I am not busy or I am pretending that I have no release on Sunday. I’ve just been lazy.

In fact, I was supposed to go to NBI today but instead I slept. I’ve consumed all my sick leave because I’m too lazy to go to work.

I’m supposed to be studying but I haven’t lifted a damn page from the tutorial.

News? I think I’m addicted to Pinoy Big Brother. I check screen caps from forums. Maybe because I am naturally a tsismosa hehehe.

“don’t be a bitch” was my horoscope yesterday or something like that. Moi? a bitch? I am really very docile.

But, something tested my patience yesterday and I ranted and ranted. Hindi na maipinta ang mukha ko.

my sister, moi and yiek
-photo swiped from ria’s blog-

So what have I been doing these past few days? Last friday I treated my sister dinner at heaven and eggs. The food was so-so, not really my type or I just didn’t order one of their better foods or I just didn’t feel it was worth the money I was paying for. You know me, I am very thrifty and would just eat at nearby carenderias should I be given a chance.

We went to intramuros after that but it was dark and the streets were too quiet so we went to baywalk but we found it too noisy, we ended up going at our apartment drinking red horse. It was my first time to drink one and I must it is way better than beer. The next day we went to Quiapo amidst the rain, went to church and went looking for accesories. This place is a haven for kikay persons. Unfortunately, I can’t wear dangling earrings because I would play endlessly with my ears and I hate looking at my other “bitas” ear. I prefer studs na lang.

Truthfully, I am not a very kikay person. I can go out without make-up and I am not fond of wearing accesories. Teka, girl ba ako? Maliit boobs ko, wala akong masyadong curves baka ata nagpa-sex change ako hehehe.

I’ve posted last month on ways to save whattdyaknow, I haven’t saved a cent. Nako po. Wala pa naman akong sweldo end of the month. tsk!

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I’ve changed my yahoo address since I’m not a “chavez” anymore. Please add me up on your ym(sintclaired@yahoo.com) or gmail talk(sintclaire@gmail.com). Chat tayo!

Yiek was irritated that I only used “d”, eh gusto ko di masyadong obvious. Pano pag nabyuda ako..i di mag chi-change nick na naman ako… ok na yang sintclaired, d for damsel hehehe.

Almost reaching boiling point

I am seething with anger. Useless son of a bitch. 1 more week and I’m free from your evil clutches.